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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2005|08:06 pm]
Shana

paperdollkittie
does anyone know a way to make everything thats going on on shana's journal stop? i don't know how many times i've emailed the people at livejournal about it. they won't do anything.

i wish i didn't have to post this on here, i don't want people to get upset or anything. but i don't know what else to do.
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(no subject) [Apr. 1st, 2005|02:16 am]
Shana

shinymacshine
i'm really missing this kid right now. i need advice. i need someone to talk to. and i constantly wonder what she'd have to say about some things. i need to visit her when i get home.

my mom found this birthday card she had written to/given to Ann Chou for her 18th birthday. It was in the trunk of Mom's Camry. So weird. I meant to give it to Ann on her 21st but I missed it by being here. Anyway, I'll get right on that when I get back home.

I dunno. I just felt a need to post b/c she's been on my mind lately. Sorry if this bugs anyone
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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2005|10:50 pm]
Shana
lithiumresidue
where are you tonight?
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(no subject) [Sep. 30th, 2004|09:37 pm]
Shana

galadriel210
Today in my R.A. class we had a session on suicide intervention. They talked about warning signs and what to do about them. It was diffiucult to sit through, as the scenarios we were given hit far too close to home -- one could have taken some of these entries and used them as examples. We worked in groups for "what would you do if..." situations and no one seemed to be taking it seriously. Some of them even laughed their way through it. I just wanted to shout at them - "PAY ATTENTION! You don't know how real this is!" They just didn't seem to understand. Being aware of residents and their behavior is a huge focus of this job and in this case letting them down has dire consequences. I wish I could make them understand before tragedy does.
Shana, thank you for allowing me to be better at my job. Thank you for helping me touch lives that need it.
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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2004|10:43 am]
Shana
lithiumresidue
[mood |indescribable]

Friday night as I was falling asleep I suddenly started thinking about Shana and I thought, if I fall asleep right now, maybe I'll dream about her.

What happened from that point on was odd because I never dream about her, and if I do I cant see her face, but I had at least three different dreams about her in which I could see everything about her. In the last dream she was telling me really important stuff about life, but all I could remember when I woke up was that she was telling me that everything was going to be okay.

I woke up lying in a big patch of sunlight with a cat on my tummy.

I had forgotten it was her birthday.
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hello hello.. [Sep. 16th, 2004|11:58 pm]
Shana
veraboat
I just want to apologise for how a big chunk of her journal showed up on everyone's friendspage.. it's a bit of a rough thing to be suddenly faced with without much warning. The good news is that all of her journal is now transcribed, thanks to your sexy mods. If you would like to see her old journal in its entirety, you're invited to check out the Memories section of the community, because it's all compiled in chronological order there. This should save you from having to scroll around all over the place on the community page, because they're a bit out of order. Also there are plans to make another section in the Memories section exclusively for photos; probably I will get all three of mine scanned and posted sometime tomorrow to get the ball rolling. Susie and I plan to have everything sorted out how we want it by Saturday, so that the community can be complete by Shana's 21st birthday. Any and all suggestions are very welcome <3
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well hokay. [Sep. 14th, 2004|12:05 am]
Shana
veraboat
So I went and transcribed all of the public entries really fast in case her journal gets shut down again. I tried to do the friends-only ones but there's no way to keep them friends only unless I don't let anybody join the community that wasn't on her friends list, because you can't custom post in a community apparently. Anyhow not all of the dates and times are all correct [I had to enter them in manually and I was in a bit of a hurry and a bit flustered] and I can't figure out how to edit them. Oh yeah and also I didn't think of the fact that it's all posted under my name. I'll sort it out in the morning I suppose.
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Enough is enough... [Mar. 22nd, 2003|09:53 pm]
Shana
veraboat
I'm tired. I love you all.
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2003|05:45 pm]
Shana
veraboat
Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease.

Circumstances are such that you have been exposed to considerable stress and tension, perhaps due to unfulfilled emotional needs. You would like nothing better than to escape from it all by retiring to some 'fantasy land' where you are permitted to RELAX and get back your strength.
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(no subject) [Mar. 22nd, 2003|03:12 pm]
Shana
veraboat
[mood |optimisticoptimistic]
[music |Mates of State]

I'm going to clean my room. Then I will be proud of myself. My room will be mine.
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